I saw your son this weekend after 19 months. He's beautiful and so much like you. What I can't understand is how his mother doesn't want me to be a part of his life...not really. She won't let me talk to him but only 5 minutes a month. I'm surprised she let me see him for a couple of hours, although her boyfriend had to be right there. Alex calls him Dad and refers to you as Brian. Iliyan wants to be called Dad, but I'm afraid of how he treats Alex. I witnessed him saying something to Alex and I found out he took away a present I gave Alex for his birthday. My heart is broken...you are gone and Alex is all I have left...yet she is trying to push me out of his life slowly. She wouldn't even let the family see him. I took him to see Gramma and Grandpa but he was only allowed about 10 minutes and Michelle's gramma had to be there, then she wanted to leave. I don't understand it. I don't drink, do drugs, run around ... I am clean living and always have been. And I have always been there for her and Alex and you before you left this world. I know it's because I am not wealthy and that she is still upset because she didn't get more money when you passed, but she got about or over $10,000 total. I got nothing...I buried you and gave the rest to her...little by little but she got it, and she doesn't want Alex to know about you. I guess it will take away from what she is trying to build with Iliyan. And I know I have grandparents rights, but I can't afford them right now. I guess I will just have to wait until he is of age and can make up his own mind. He and I have talked and I know he will come back to me. Thank you for listening Brian....I love you and miss you son so very very much! Say hello to God for me and thank him for getting me thru this horrible time since you left. I love you son! My Beautiful Boy! Rest In Peace!